Cheryl Rainfield

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I write the books I needed as a teen. Queer nonbinary cult torture survivor. They/them. Agent Jennifer Wills.

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Getting safe from cult torture can take time; it's not instant or easy. #cultsurvivor

Getting safe from cult torture can take time; it's not instant or easy. #cultsurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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The cult dehumanized us in many ways; real connection can be healing.#ramcoa #cultsurvivor

The cult dehumanized us in many ways; real connection can be healing.#ramcoa #cultsurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult uses dental torture regularly against us cult torture survivors

Cult uses dental torture regularly against us cult torture survivors Cheryl Rainfield

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Some ways to help fight cult torture & support survivors

Some ways to help fight cult torture & support survivors Cheryl Rainfield

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Organized cult torture is a worldwide problem #cultsurvivor #ramcoa

Organized cult torture is a worldwide problem #cultsurvivor #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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I could not have survived the cult torture without splitting off parts of myself (DID)

I could not have survived the cult torture without splitting off parts of myself (DID) Cheryl Rainfield

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One of the most painful things in the cult torture was being forced to torture other kids

One of the most painful things in the cult torture was being forced to torture other kids Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult teaches folks inside with the dissociative identity to want unalive ourselves. We never will.

Cult teaches folks inside with the dissociative identity to want unalive ourselves. We never will. Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult threatened to murder us kids and did so many times including hunting us

Cult threatened to murder us kids and did so many times including hunting us Cheryl Rainfield

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Good therapists were a lifeline for me in all the years I was being tortured

Good therapists were a lifeline for me in all the years I was being tortured Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult often puts child victims through rebirthing rituals to bond us to the cult (graphic detail)

Cult often puts child victims through rebirthing rituals to bond us to the cult (graphic detail) Cheryl Rainfield

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We (DID) had a part come out who'd never by choice come out - & wecouldn't retain what they said

We (DID) had a part come out who'd never by choice come out - & wecouldn't retain what they said Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult forces victims to ingest bodies of murdered victims to erase evidence & increase torture

Cult forces victims to ingest bodies of murdered victims to erase evidence & increase torture Cheryl Rainfield

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In cult the torture starts in utero and continues after birth. #ramcoa

In cult the torture starts in utero and continues after birth. #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult used spinning for torture, disorientation, and programming #ramcoa #cultsurvivor #mindcontrol

Cult used spinning for torture, disorientation, and programming #ramcoa #cultsurvivor #mindcontrol Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult controls victims by convincing us we are constantly being monitored #ramcoasurvivor #ramcoa

Cult controls victims by convincing us we are constantly being monitored #ramcoasurvivor #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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As cult torture survivors we can get around the mind control using creativity.

As cult torture survivors we can get around the mind control using creativity. Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult demanded obedience; resistance meant increased torture

Cult demanded obedience; resistance meant increased torture Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult tries to convince us that they are our family or will control us forever #ramcoa

Cult tries to convince us that they are our family or will control us forever #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult taught us (DID) to self-hárm & unalive ourselves #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor

Cult taught us (DID) to self-hárm & unalive ourselves #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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If you're a cult torture Survivor you can work through programming #ramcoasurvivor #mindcontrol

If you're a cult torture Survivor you can work through programming #ramcoasurvivor #mindcontrol Cheryl Rainfield

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Believe survivors. There is proof in our DID, our memories, our bodies #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor

Believe survivors. There is proof in our DID, our memories, our bodies #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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Cults use props, costumes, & ideologies to try to discredit survivors, increase fear #ramcoa

Cults use props, costumes, & ideologies to try to discredit survivors, increase fear #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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Mind control is meant to isolate us, keep us from getting help, remembering, talking to help cult

Mind control is meant to isolate us, keep us from getting help, remembering, talking to help cult Cheryl Rainfield

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As cult torture survivors we can be wary of people for many reasons & cult impersonates therapists

As cult torture survivors we can be wary of people for many reasons & cult impersonates therapists Cheryl Rainfield

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Some people demand names from us cult torture survivors even tho it would put us in danger #ramcoa

Some people demand names from us cult torture survivors even tho it would put us in danger #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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So many people ask how they can help us cult torture and trafficking survivors #ramcoasurvivor

So many people ask how they can help us cult torture and trafficking survivors #ramcoasurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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People like to think they could spot child trafficking & cult torture but most would miss it #ramcoa

People like to think they could spot child trafficking & cult torture but most would miss it #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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We have many folks inside #DID who only wants to exist in the mind not front in the body #plural

We have many folks inside #DID who only wants to exist in the mind not front in the body #plural Cheryl Rainfield

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It can take a long time for cult torture survivors to get safe #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor

It can take a long time for cult torture survivors to get safe #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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We map out our DID system in various ways #dissociativeidentitydisorder #did

We map out our DID system in various ways #dissociativeidentitydisorder #did Cheryl Rainfield

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The recent NYT article on DID contained so much misinformation & echoes of FMS. #did #ramcoasystem

The recent NYT article on DID contained so much misinformation & echoes of FMS. #did #ramcoasystem Cheryl Rainfield

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Most of us ( #DID) could see through the fake abuse scenarios but were still traumatized

Most of us ( #DID) could see through the fake abuse scenarios but were still traumatized Cheryl Rainfield

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We live with polyfragmented DID, 1000s of fragments, complex, lots of co-fronting & switching

We live with polyfragmented DID, 1000s of fragments, complex, lots of co-fronting & switching Cheryl Rainfield

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We can work with cult-created insiders on programming & get safe #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor #did

We can work with cult-created insiders on programming & get safe #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor #did Cheryl Rainfield

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What is happening in the US is fascism, Gaza & Sudan is genocide, Ukraine organized oppression

What is happening in the US is fascism, Gaza & Sudan is genocide, Ukraine organized oppression Cheryl Rainfield

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There's always a way around programming. #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor #mindcontrol #ramcoasystem

There's always a way around programming. #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor #mindcontrol #ramcoasystem Cheryl Rainfield

44 views - 4 weeks ago

Cult used dogs in so many ways (TW: cult torture, detail) #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor #ramcoa

Cult used dogs in so many ways (TW: cult torture, detail) #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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To survive cult torture not only did we have to split (#DID), some of us had to stay unaware #ramcoa

To survive cult torture not only did we have to split (#DID), some of us had to stay unaware #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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So many things need to change to help cult torture survivors including the legal system #ramcoa

So many things need to change to help cult torture survivors including the legal system #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult deliberately creates a bond between us kids and a cult member #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor

Cult deliberately creates a bond between us kids and a cult member #ramcoasurvivor #cultsurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult bases core programming cues on basic things. There is always a way to work with it.

Cult bases core programming cues on basic things. There is always a way to work with it. Cheryl Rainfield

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If you're a therapist just starting working with DID & RAMCOA clients I hope you'll get consultation

If you're a therapist just starting working with DID & RAMCOA clients I hope you'll get consultation Cheryl Rainfield

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The cult used everything I was doing in my healing but they could not stop us

The cult used everything I was doing in my healing but they could not stop us Cheryl Rainfield

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We live with polyfragmented co-conscious Dissociative Identity. #plural

We live with polyfragmented co-conscious Dissociative Identity. #plural Cheryl Rainfield

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My cult abuser parents sent us (DID) to extracurricular activities to keep up the facade

My cult abuser parents sent us (DID) to extracurricular activities to keep up the facade Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult intentionally made sure we wouldn't trust most people, especially authority figures

Cult intentionally made sure we wouldn't trust most people, especially authority figures Cheryl Rainfield

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We never bonded with our cult abuser parents #ramcoa #plural

We never bonded with our cult abuser parents #ramcoa #plural Cheryl Rainfield

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The cult used temperature in torture #ramcoa

The cult used temperature in torture #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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We live with polyfragmented DID; we often switch, even subtly #plural #ramcoasystem

We live with polyfragmented DID; we often switch, even subtly #plural #ramcoasystem Cheryl Rainfield

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I had a triggering medical appointment as a cult torture survivor

I had a triggering medical appointment as a cult torture survivor Cheryl Rainfield

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Trauma memories can come in so many ways including nightmares

Trauma memories can come in so many ways including nightmares Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult deliberately used techniques used in therapy during torture #ramcoasurvivor

Cult deliberately used techniques used in therapy during torture #ramcoasurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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We (DID) went from despair to professional demeanor in less than 5 min

We (DID) went from despair to professional demeanor in less than 5 min Cheryl Rainfield

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I have a messed up relationship with food because of the cult torture #ramcoasurvivor

I have a messed up relationship with food because of the cult torture #ramcoasurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

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With our plurality it never feels like there's enough time in the body or the day #plural

With our plurality it never feels like there's enough time in the body or the day #plural Cheryl Rainfield

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Cult made some of us victims and some perpetrators #ramcoa

Cult made some of us victims and some perpetrators #ramcoa Cheryl Rainfield

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How we create system maps. #plural #dissociativeidentitydisorder #ramcoasystem

How we create system maps. #plural #dissociativeidentitydisorder #ramcoasystem Cheryl Rainfield

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Many of us cult torture survivors have baby parts (DID) because torture happened as a baby

Many of us cult torture survivors have baby parts (DID) because torture happened as a baby Cheryl Rainfield

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People ask me how the cult could do what they did #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor

People ask me how the cult could do what they did #cultsurvivor #ramcoasurvivor Cheryl Rainfield

48 views - 2 months ago